It's taken me 9 years to write this.....

by **Greenie** » Fri Jul 30, 2010 3:36 am

Listening right now (& crying again). You are so strong!

by **artymama** » Fri Jul 30, 2010 4:58 am

Thanks everyone.

I did it! Read it out pretty much word for word as I knew that was the only way I'd get through it. I'm glad I shared it, though reliving it in such detail was intense.

Although I feel like I've really healed from her birth, I feel like there'll always be that pain. That's what the obs and midwives don't realise, it lasts forever.

by **Heket** » Fri Jul 30, 2010 8:31 am

You're so right, it's just another day, another vagina, another crying baby to them, to us it's our whole lives :grouphug

by **artymama** » Fri Jul 30, 2010 11:50 am

Tonight Toby reminded me of one major part of the story that I left out. MY SISTERS! They would not stop calling me. Every half hour and then every fifteen minutes it was insane. "ooooo are you having another contraction, they hurt don't they?!" "Are you in a lot of pain? You sound like you're in a lot of pain" "You should go to the hospital!" No wonder I was so bloody anxious! lol. Can't believe I forgot about that. My doula ended up refusing to let them speak to me anymore and said we'd call when there was news. My sisters then rang my mum and told her that something was wrong with me, that I needed to go to the hospital and that the doula was refusing to tell me that they'd called! lol, they're crazy. My Mum then got on the next plane to fly up to see me. She ended up driving to the wrong hospital with my BIL. bwahahahaha! My family are nutters.

by **Heket** » Fri Jul 30, 2010 1:38 pm

an excellent reason to never discuss birth or labour with family!!!

by **Alice** » Sat Jul 31, 2010 10:39 am

Arty I read your birth story last night and I am so sorry you had to go through such an awful time with your first beautiful daughter. I love her name

Hugs toyou and thanks so much for sharing it.

by **artymama** » Sat Jul 31, 2010 11:18 am

Thanks Alice. I wish I hadn't have gone through it either :cry:

Healed, but still hurts. Always will I imagine.

by **Jacaranda** » Sat Jul 31, 2010 12:00 pm

Arty, thank you so much for sharing your story. It's brought tears to my eyes too, and I'm so sorry you had to experience such a horrible birth. Blessings to you. xxx

by **deesalie** » Tue Aug 03, 2010 9:51 am

I'm so sorry for the horrific care you and your daughter received.

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